it's complicated....how cruel life can be....

how cruel life can be? telika i moira paizei trella paixnidia, exthes etuxe na milisw prwti fora meta apo kairo "filias" mou sto fatsovivlio me mia kopela pou tyxainei na eimaste geitonisses kai patriwtisses, an kai apo diplanous nomous. Meta apo kapoia sunomilia mas kai enw i mia milaei gia tin alli, egw milousa gia tin prwin sxesi mou kai ekeini gia to poso erwteumeni einai kai ti dwro tha kanei sto agori pou tin endiaferei kai exei gennethlia meta apo treis meres.. telika tsekarw ksana to profile tis kai to mono pou diapistwnw einai oti milousame gia to idio agori. To prwin agori mou pou imastan 7 xronia mazi einai akrivws to idio atomo me to paidi pou skeftetai kai erwteutike ekeini. eipe ola osa sxediazei na kanei sti giorti tou gia na perasei kala ekeinos mazi tis kai polla akoma... mia sizitisi gia tis sxeseis den einai kako kai eidika otan mexri pro imerwn exeis dei fotografies tis me allo agori. To xeirotero itan otan ekane enimerwsi to fatsovivlio kai diapistwnw agkalia auton pou agapisa me ti geitonissa mou kai fatsofilenada mou. trella? ee nomizw sou rxetai kapws... twra ti na peis? de mporeis na peis kati.. eidika otan exete pei pragmata proswpika.. mono kai mono epeidi pragmatika ton agapisa, tha tou euxithw ta kalutera! de kserw ti allo. nomizw omws oti akoma autes oi gms anamniseis exoun rizwsei mesa mou, persu trexame sto IKEA na allaksoume epipla, na anoiksoume to spiti stous filous gia ta gennethlia tou, edeixne toso xaroumenos..evlepa foto kai videakia apo ta perasmena tou gennethlia , to happy birthday sto piano , plakitses , tragoudakia, de svinoun etsi ta 7 xronia! ponaw de mporw na to krupsw, ti na pw oti ematha kai pio idiwtika pragmata metaksu tous? e auto kai an ponaei...

pali leipeis, auti i agkalia sou tha mou meinei mono sta oneira mou,eipes egines skliros kai psuxros, na sai kala agori mou kai as lampeis me ti siwpi sou kai tin apousia sou. De dextikes na vrethoume kai de se vlepw na to dextheis pote.. esu eipes tha apofasiseis. ennoia sou apofasise i zwi gia sena... mono anapse an thes kapoia stigmi ena keraki gia ekeini ti mikri psuxoula pou pige na gennithei kai esvise toso nwris itan to mwro mas..

Telika poso skliri mporei na einai i zwi? e? as mou dwsei kapoios mia apantisi? alla akoma kai autos pou tha mporouse na mou dwsei exei idi fygei gia allou..