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ksana i figoura sou, telika auto to dwmatio einai adeio xwris esena, akoma kai meta apo toso kairo... ti na pw, flert ok, doksa to Theo , upirksan kai tha imoun kai pseutra ean elega to antitheto, de mporw allo kourastika. Kourastika apo tin anamoni, kourastika apo tin adiaforia sou, mou eleipse auti i epikoinwnia pou esu tin ekopses, enw stin arxi eleges alla. Twra an ola eixan paei kalutera tha imoun me mia koilitsa fouskwmeni opou isws kai na klwtsage ki olas kai mexri ta xristougenna tha eixa ena mwraki... Thee mou min eimai axaristi , eimai kala toulaxiston. Einai toso kako omws pou tha thela na eixa mia mikri psuxoula pou tha proekupte apo tin agapi mas, na ti frontizw , na ti didaskw, na tis dinw agapi... Telika kai esu tha ginosoun poli kalos pateras, otan den exoume parei kapoia pragmata s'auti ti zwi ta dinoume sta paidia mas eis pollaploun. Den eimai tis arxis pou pisteuoun kapoioi, oti ean den ta exei zisei o allos apo ta palia kai den exei mathei na dexetai agapi, den exei mathei kai na dinei. Esu eidika to exeis mesa sou, auto pou sou leipei opws kai emena einai to timing tis ekfrasews twn sunaisthimatwn mas... Giati wres wres kserw tin kathe sou kinisi? Yparxoun fores pou se exw dei ston upno mou kai itan toso zwntano pou otan anoiksa ta matia mou kai diapistwsa oti mono ekei tha se exw ksespasa se klama... Isws me ola auta na variesai, na ginesai akoma pio dunatos kai na les ante kale auti einai kollimeni, kanw egw auta pou thelw sti zwi mou kai astin... de nomizw oti eisai toso egwistis, toulaxiston den isoun... pas gia to didaktoriko sou, agapi mou kati mesa mou mou leei oti tha pas kala, to ksereis kai esu, as exeis autes tis amfivolies twra, eisai dunatos kai proxwras.. egw opou ki an eimai me opoious ki an eimai tha xairomai me kathe epituxia sou... Sigoura me ola auta variesai, ta thewreis anousia, ilithia, ma de milas kai esu... ekana lathi gia alli mia fora opws kai esu kai mi to arnitheis. ksereis kala oti akoma kai krufa na feugame estw kai gia ena vradu de lew diimero, tha mporousame toulaxiston na eimaste agkalia o enas ston allo, mou arkei mono i zesti tou kormiou sou, o xtupos tis kardias sou, thumasai ti mou eixes pei mia fora pou isoun stin agkalia mou? ti iremi pou einai.... Ouf ti egrapsa pali!!! Telika twra katalavainw giati gemizei ena imerologio meta apo ena xwrismo kai thes akoma alla duo toulaxiston... oxi vivlio aplo grafw, tomous mporw... tha valw allo ena tragoudi kai tha sunexisw to grapsimo, nomizw oti simera to vradu tha ksenuxtisw grafontas, oxi ergasia, alla vgazontas to mesa mou... exw kai dimosies sxeseis na kanw , eides ti mou eixes pei? s'arese pou imoun koinwniki kai an anoigame ena diko mas magazi, esu tha analamvanes to kommati tis epixeirisis kai egw twn dimosiwn sxesewn! apofasisa loipon na to askisw kai auto. Tha mou kanei kalo stin prokeimeni periptwsi, i diorganwsi twn parties einai super! mporei na exei apisteuto treksimo alla sou afinei ligo xrono gia na skefteis oxi omws k na oneireuteis... kai ti na oneireuteis to vradu? Esena. Mipws eisai emmoni telika? oxi , auto legetai agapi gia mena! Na kserw zeis, anapneeis kai proxwras estw kai xwrista....